behind the lens

megan gonzalez

I've always been a dreamer. I've always been lost in a world where love came first and everything else just, sort of, didn't matter. Maybe that makes me a romantic, or maybe it simply means that I'm a believer and true Love is everything to me. Upon Waves is about getting out of the boat and trusting in the journey.

loose your faith & you'll find yourself

sinking

Whatever the reason, I've found that my style of photography is based around this deep and meaningful emotion. It's how I am able to let others see the world through my eyes as I watch the stories unfold. My goal is to capture my heart and vision through the moments that make the stories so beautiful.

 

Pretty pictures aren't about perfect poses or flawless makeup, and though I am drawn to the whimsy of soft flowy gowns and fabrics, it's the emotion behind the images that make them so meaningful. Documenting the authentic chapters of your life is what will tell the timeless story that will be passed on from generation to generation.

 

 

"Be weird. Be random. Be who you are. Because you never know who will love the person you hide." - C. S. Lewis

THINGS THAT MAKE ME, ME.

 

I'M A BELIEVER, WIFE AND MOTHER

QUOTES AND SCRIPTURES ARE MY LOVE LANGUAGE

MY FAVORITE BOOK IS CHARLOTTE'S WEB

I AM DEEPLY INSPIRED BY BALLET AND THE OCEAN

MY NAME ACTUALLY MEANS "PEARL"

 

It’s not always perfect. In fact, it’s never perfect.

 

I struggled a lot as a business owner. God was at the center of everything in my life, with the exception of my business – when it came to that, He was absent. And, I’m not saying that He Himself was absent from my business; but in a way, I kept Him “hidden under a bushel” so to speak.

<< That's me, and this is my

testimony

I was living a life of validation, searching high and low for approval, recognition and praise from the world around me. I was lifted up each time my work was featured or published, only to be brought right back down again when the vanity of it wore off.

 

I felt myself sinking into sands of self-doubt.

 

I spent countless hours away from my family trying to find ways to be a better photographer; a more successful business owner.

 

 

I am the vine; you are the branches. if you remain in Me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing. (John 15:5)

 

 

I began stepping back from my business little by little; taking Saturday’s to clean the house and devoting Tuesday’s to spending time with my family or going on dates with my Hubby. I went to bookstores and movies with friends, caught up over coffee, and started going to Bible study. I stepped back into church on Sunday’s. I began to recognize ME again. Not me as a business owner or photographer, not me as a stay at home mom, not me as a wife or friend… but me as a person. I noticed a huge weight begin to lift off of my shoulders as I began to let go of perfection and the idea that I had to appeal to everyone. I was no longer on the world's time, but I found myself trusting more in God's time.

 

I found myself praying more often, seeking God and searching for answers regarding my business. It took a couple of months before I began getting any answers. The first presented itself through a prayer journal I'd been keeping - "You're hiding your faith because you're scared of how the world will view you. You're afraid that people will think your faith is false. You're afraid that nonbelievers will turn away from you and you'll lose friends and followers." It was true, I was afraid.

 

Another answer came to me one night as I sat on the couch reading Deeply Rooted magazine... the words “Upon Waves”. I hadn't read the words in the magazine, they just came to me - moving through me like nothing I'd ever experienced before. It was God telling me to stop being afraid and to stop hiding my faith. He was telling me to follow my heart both as a believer and as an artist and let go of the person I kept trying to be. And just like that, my business was reborn and made new.

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